Can I change the opinion??
I think back to school days and remember sitting with two or three other people at lunch then heading to the library...I was a studier, I spent half my life during that time in the library.(this did drop when I started uni though...as many would tell you) I had friends, but I wasn't one of the 'popular girls', I didn't care, I think that's what annoyed them about me so much, the fact that I didn't give a shit what they said or did. I just got on with my own thing. I've never been a 'move with the group' type of person, I've always been happy doing my own thing at my own pace. This is my past but lately it has been making me think about me now...
I've been thinking what is about people that makes you like or dislike them. I don't think of myself of a perfect person but I don't think of myself as horrible. Yet that said there are a few people who I could mention who do not hold me in high regard...at all. I've been trying to think about what I did on first meeting that would have caused these people to end up disliking me? I talk a lot, but I am well educated and think of myself as an intelligent young woman so generally speaking my conversation is not boring. Yet I have obviously made a bad impression on these people to make them feel this way about me. That said why do my friends like me? I am the same person in both situations however one goes one way and the other..well you get the drift. I don't expect everyone to love me, but I don't expect people to loathe me. Let's face it, we all have people who dislike us and honestly some would be for good reason, but the whole?
Maybe sometimes it because you break into an established group of friends and are considered an outsider by a few of the members, (except the one or two who originally brought you in) and this feeling never really changes. You never get given a chance to be accepted, it as if some people feel they have enough friends and don't really have time for anymore. I don't like upsetting people, (as my boyfriend will tell you) I basically try not to do it. I complain to him instead or I get really quiet and a little moody. Maybe this isn't the right path either, mayber that's a reason why some people end up disliking others, because you are not honest with them but above all with yourself.
I don't truly expect to be loved ,liked or even appreciated by everyone nor do I expect to be best friends with them all. I too would have to admit that there are not enough hours in the day to do that, I would just like to be thought of as a nice aquaintance. anyway enough yabbering on... later