(I posted this article a while ago then thought it I shouldn't have put it where anyone - like the person involved - can find it, but then I realised that this is my blog and I want/need to unload things like this here...so take 2)So it's been a few days since I last wrote. That friend I told you about has gone (the one who was telling tales about staying with my partner and I, being all smiles about it then telling everyone else how much she was hating it...and how I found out). Well she con...

( I removed this article a while ago (sept) I didn't want the person below to accidently fidn it but I realise now that I want to write about how I feel and in doing that I need to write everything - so here we go) I am so angry! Why do I let myself get into these situations? I trust people and I do things for them and I end up being taken for a ride. The sad thing is this isn't the first time, nor I'm sure will it be the last. I love all my friends, I value them as individuals and as part...

Right now I am very happy. I have an interview in a couple of weeks for a job I really want and I have work in the meantime with a really good company!! So yeah!! It's about damn time but really good! I admit that I am going to miss the long lies and the freedom to do what I want with my day, but I am not going to miss the lack of money that is mine!! There's a couple of nice little skirts that I just know would look great on me! Please believe I am not materialistic but when you haven'...

This last Sunday my partner and I went to visit an old famly friend, the lady in question went to school with my Gran and is a ripe old age of 84. I had only met her once before about 5 years ago, and was of course very different to now. I was only a teenager and had short hair, no makeup, bad style, also I lacked in the height department. I got all of these things commented on as we entered. My hair was nice, though why haven't I stuck to my natural colour. Why do I need to wear tho...

So it's that time, my 3 month sabatical is over and it's back to work I trot. I have an interview on Monday, I'm looking forward to it. I have to admit that I am also looking forward to meeting some new people and getting back in to a routine. At the moment I am spending my days writing and researching, but not really getting out and meeting people. My partner and I are also trying to save as much money as possible so it would probably be best if have two wages coming in. I have been doin...

I don't know why I am still mad, it's not like I have to deal with the 'problem' anymore. Well not on a personal level at least. The 'problem' has moved out, THANK GOD!!! I am free!!! now I just have to decide if I want to be free forever, I think unfortunately the answer is yes...I think I am over the anger, betrayl and pain ,then as soon as I think of the 'problem' it all comes rushing back. I think the easiest way for me to deal with this is to irradicate it from my life forever. It will ...

I'm sitting here marvelling at the wonder that is nature. Don't get me wrong I'm far from what you could call a 'tree hugging greenie' but I have to admit it is amazing. Take today for instance; this morning it was quite overcast and cloudy, rain was threatening to come. Then the sun came out in all it's glory, warming me up and allowing me to think of going for a walk....hmmm I was literally just about to walk out the door when all of a sudden 'the very heavens opened up' and a downpour ...

I think I have a problem. I'm becomming addicted to using my computer. It started out slowly, I would just check my emails in the morning, write some replies, maybe type up some notes then do something else. I then started researching online, and one day I happened to stumble across Joe User, I thought this looks like a lot of fun. So I began, and haven't stopped since. If I'm not writing, I'm reading. So many people have so much to say and a lot of people seem really close. It's good to know...

I'm supposed to be researching right now. I promised myself that I would, but I just can't seem to stay focused. I want to, I really do, but for some reason I can't. Strange. I made pizza dough ready for dinner tonight, I've been out to the shops, I've even watched some mindless T.V. hoping to relax my mind enough to clear it of all thoughts and hopefully start again. Yet here I am again, writing, sharing, but not researching. I keep telling myself that I will, I know I will but I don't...

I remember sitting in science class about 10 years ago being taught that what goes up must come down. Yet now that I am older and ‘think outside the box’ a little more than I did then, I don’t want to believe that the statement is 100% true. In metaphoric terms I have spent so long climbing up my ladder that I refuse to fall back down. I will always endeavour to climb, perhaps sometimes I will climb horizontally still moving, BUT never down! Sometimes we don’t have a choice to falling, but ...

I think back to school days and remember sitting with two or three other people at lunch then heading to the library...I was a studier, I spent half my life during that time in the library.(this did drop when I started uni though...as many would tell you) I had friends, but I wasn't one of the 'popular girls', I didn't care, I think that's what annoyed them about me so much, the fact that I didn't give a shit what they said or did. I just got on with my own thing. I've never been a 'move wi...

I think that I have come to a conclusion, regardless of what everyone else is doing, I'm grounded. I just thought of it today, weird really, so many things are changing for so many other people yet I stopped and thought about it, I don't need it. I am happy taking my time, climbing my hill, I know I'll get to the top one day, but I'm not in a rush to get there right now. I don't mind if other people are pasing me because I know I'm not going to slip. I'm holding on to tight, I've got all a...

I turned on my computer today and like any other day I checked my email. I was as ever, happy to see a few emails from friends that had been sent overnight. However my happiness soon faded when I began to read an email from one of my closet and oldest friends. She had forwarded on a dreaded chain mail... one that told me about love, appreciating friendship and not taking things at face value. However that was not all, it also informed me that if I didn't forward it onto at least 15 people i...

I never expected things to stay the same, but I also didn't expect them to change so dramatically. It's like you suddenly wake up one morning and nothing has remained constant, you've known the whole time that things were changing, but it's only jsut now really hit you what's been going on. That little voice in the back your head was sometimes whispering and sometimes shouting it's concerns. However, you didn't listen to that little voice because your whole life you've been told that change ...

I want to get to 85 be able to sit on my backyard swing chair with a glass of red and some music playing remiding me of all the memories I've built up over my life, most of all I want to be able to do it without any regrets. So far things aren't going to badly, I've finished two degrees, moved to a new country, live with the man of my dreams, and can honestly say I'm happy...now if I can just get through the next 60 years or so. Watch this space, it may at times be full of absolute crap, but...